ISTJ

My myers-briggs is/was? ISTJ.  This means that I am an introverted sensing thinking judging person.  Per a description on the web of an ISTJ, my primary mode of living is focused internally, where I take things in via my five senses in a literal, concrete fashion.  My secondary mode is external, where I deal with things rationally and logically.  I am supposedly quiet and reserved (REALLY?) and am interested in security and peaceful living.  I am supposedly organized (have you seen my craft room?) and have a serious air making me successful.

I know I am an introvert because I am more comfortable alone than with others.  It's not that I don't like being with other people.  It's just that to do that takes a lot of energy for me and is out of my comfort range.  If I am in a group where I know everyone, then it gets a bit easier.

I also know that I do not like surprises.  I like knowing what the future holds.  I am a list maker, am task orientated and have a need to acomplish something.  I do 2-3 things at a time and cannot just 'sit'.  Meditation is impossible for me because my mind does not rest.  Sleep is illusive for the same reason.  (That and menopause!)

So I married someone who is almost the complete opposite of me.  Frank is an ENFJ.  Thank God we are both J's because without that in common we would have killed each other by now.  The fact that he is a much stronger J than me almost did us in at the beginning of our marriage but we have learned to compensate for that now.  I no longer give vague approval to ANYTHING because he will take that for a yes and go forth.  I have learned that he does not understand a women's right to change her mind and that if I say yes it does not mean YES.  I ended up in Las Vegas once because of that.

So, all this is leading somewhere and as soon as I figure that out I will fill you in.  Right now I am just trying to figure me out.  Like, why do I travel when it is so beyond my comfort zone?  Why do I agree to do so much when clearly I do not want to say yes?  (I'm getting better at that one.  I can say no a lot now!)  Why am I in a book club when I really don't want to read the books?  WHY?

Oh well, so many questions so little answers.  Perhaps the answers will come forth in the future.  For now I will keep on knitting and find peace through that.